I'm under your spell !!

Chapter 1: The Little Problem Called Love

Konnichi-wa !!!

It's not difficult to see my newest FF! * Rejoice and jump in the air * I hope you like it! Have fun while reading!!! bye bye Ma-chan

I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was the sun that had just risen. I got up and looked around. Then the memory came back bit by bit. We had a tough battle behind us. My things were in a neat pile at the end of the futon I slept on. I took it and put it on. Then I stepped out of the hut. A fire crackled on a small fireplace and the others sat around it. "Ah, Sango-chan. You woke up," said Kagome. "Yes, indeed, I am," I replied and sat down next to my best friend. Suddenly I felt pain, and I remembered my Hiraikotsu had turned upside down and hit me in full force. I ignored this pain, however, because I didn't want the others to worry unnecessarily.We all sat in silence for a while and watched Kagome prepare the meal. Then she gave everyone a bowl and filled it up and we ate. Only one didn’t seem to have the right appetite. The whole time he was staring into the fire, lost in thought, just poking around at the food. ° What is the matter with him? °, I asked myself. I remembered that when I came out of the hut he was almost pale in the face. Over time it turned back color. He looked very worried, sad, and somehow aloof. I straighten up and sit down next to him. "What's wrong with you? You seem so absent. Is something wrong?" He stared into the fire for a while longer. Then he looked at me. "Say Sango ... Oh forget it ... I'm fine." I still looked at him with worried eyes. Suddenly, I should have expected it, I felt a hand on my bum. I swung out and struck. And I hit hard. He sighed and rubbed my now slowly reddening handprint."You really can never stop it, can you?" I asked him extremely irritably. As was to be expected, now came the sentence that always brought the barrel to overflow for me: "But I can't help it.", He protested. Angry, I grabbed my Hiraikotsu to train a little and get other thoughts. We decided to stay at the hut for another day, then we planned to move on. We hiked through nature for 4 days. (Somehow nature doesn't matter everywhere! ^^ °) Then we came to a village. As we all hadn't expected otherwise, when we arrived an ominous black cloud appeared over the best tavern in town. I wasn't surprised, but I enjoyed the peace and quiet and the food it brought us. The tavern owner tells me that there were hot springs on the outskirts of the village. It was already evening and so Kagome, Shippo and I decided not to go swimming until the next Taz.

We were all exhausted from the long hike, and yet I couldn't sleep.I just thought about everything: my past, the future, Kagome and Inuyasha, I even thought about little Shippo. But what preoccupied me the most was Miroku. I just couldn't figure it out. Sometimes he looked so thoughtful, even vulnerable, and then he afforded such a grope again. He shamelessly took advantage of all situations to grope my backside. But then there were those moments when he used his life to save me and only me. It was just maddening. I was anything but okay with what I was feeling. Without my noticing, surprising tears crept their way down my cheeks. Whenever I thought about Miroku for too long, I would cry. Fortunately, these reflections only happened when I was alone. So I cried myself to sleep, like so often.

When I woke up the next morning everyone was up except me. When I was finished, I grabbed a towel and stepped out the door.The first thing I saw was Miroku, or rather: Miroku, who was surrounded by a crowd of pretty young girls.

I felt like I was falling into a deep hole. I was so disappointed. I felt my eyes fill with tears. I ran past him and the girls and when he saw me he shouted: "Wait Sango! Let me explain it to you! It's not what you think!" But I didn't want to have it explained. "Baka! I have eyes in my head too! I can form my own opinion!" I yelled at him with a tear-choked voice. “Just leave me alone!” And then she was back. This yawning emptiness. ° What is the matter with me? Why does it hurt so much? ° Then the tears began to flow. I kept running to the hot springs. I secretly hoped he would follow me, try to stop me, but he didn't. In my anger the tears that had just dried up began to flow again. But ... why did these tears flow in the first place?As so often before, I asked myself that. And as so often before, I felt lonely. Lonely and empty. As always. I wanted to be loved as Inuyasha loved Kagome, even if he didn't admit it, it was obvious. I wished for nothing more than someone who would hug me and comfort me when I was sad. I ran over and over until I finally got to the hot springs, and again noticed tears trickling down my cheeks in hot rivers. Now these slowly dried up. I went over to the hot springs and let Kagome and Shippo know. I took off my yukata and took off my apron (you already know that green thing). I noticed the many scars that covered my whole body. ° No wonder nobody wants me ... ° Then I went into the water and soon I met the other two too. While my best friend splashed around with little kitsune, I thought about it.My mind wandered back to the scars. ° But if I'm really that ugly, why is the Baka always tense with me? ° "Oh damn it!" I said out loud unintentionally. Kagome fell my bad shape and came to me. “What's the matter with you, Sango?” “Oh nothing. I was just thinking.” “Is it about Miroku-sama,” she asked, as if she could read my mind. "No, just in general ...! Oh, I don't know! I don't understand myself!" "Do you love him?" I shrugged.

“What happened that made you so angry?” “He's been digging at all the girls in the village again.” Kagome looked at me sympathetically and put an arm around me. "It's okay, Sango. That'll be all right again."

A rustle in the bushes brought us back down to earth and I jumped up. I dived to my Hiraikotsu and hurled him at the disgusting tensioner. He howled loudly too. I ran to my things and quickly put on the yukata.It was clear to me, of course, that Miroku was the tensioner. I was mad, just pissed off and mad. But then the unreasonable part of my head spoke up. # Wasn't that what you wanted? Didn't you, deep down in your subconscious, want it to follow you? # I quickly put the apron back on. Then I hurried back to Miroku. I had lost the fun of bathing.

Shinzo no doki
(Palpitations)

The days go by
I never stop
But now it's done
I look you in the eye and ask myself:
Why?! Why?! Why are you doing this to me?!

Shinzo no doki
My heart is racing
I do not know what I want
What do you want from me?
Shinzo no doki

Your eyes fix me
I look you in the face
The past was
It hurt me,
When she was with you
And I ask myself:
Why?! Why?! Why are you doing this to me?!

Shinzo no doki
My heart is racing
I do not know what I want
What do you want from me?
Shinzo no doki

You open your mouth:I didn't mean to hurt you
My love was always real
I hate to be joking
Because then you feel bad
And I ask you:
Why?! Why?! Why are you doing this to me?!

Shinzo no doki
My heart is racing
I do not know what I want
What do you want from me?
Shinzo no doki

I can not anymore
You tear me apart and yet ...
I love you....
Shinzo no doki
(Small comment on my part: I had initially considered whether I should pack the songfics individually. However, I have now decided to make the FF similar to a musical. I hope you like it!)