Chapter 1: Don't you understand?

Hey dear ones, .. ^^
So, .. a new work by mia! I admit that it is difficult to understand in some places, but I gave myself a lot of effort and hope that you like it anyway, ..; __;

"Keira, .. help ..... me, ..", with these words the pretty girl collapsed and stopped moving. Her eyes stared blankly and without expression through the room. The girl named Keira stood motionless. "Ha, .. Did you hear ... what ... she just said?", She asked with a tear-choked voice, "Did you hear it?" Keira fell on her knees. "Alex, .. hey, ..", with these words she crawled to the dead girl and took her in her arms, "Don't you hear? YOU MUST NOT DIE !! You have to stay with me ..". The blond-haired one grew quieter with every word.

Vincent stood by with wide eyes. He couldn't think clearly. - Tell me this is only a dream! This can not be true,.. -. He continued to stare at Alex. Until he noticed that Keira wasn't making a single sound."You, ..", she grunted, but didn't look at him, "That, ... is all entirely your fault, didn't you understand what she explained to you? Was it so difficult to understand?".

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"That can't be, he's getting married?", Alex looked at Keira with wide eyes. "You ... you know what happens then, right?" Alex held his chest. Keira eyed her. "Yes, I understand. I tried to persuade him, but ...". She was silent. "You know that Lucifer will kill me ?! You know that my heart shouldn't be broken ?! This damned pact, ..", Alex looked at Keira with an indefinable look. "Tell me again, I still haven't got it right, .." Keira said seriously. Alex sighed. "You were there when I almost drowned and officially died for two minutes. Those two minutes felt like two years. I tell you there is God and there is also the devil. I became an angel. When I was God asked for a favor to be allowed to go back to earth, he forbade me.I was desperate, day in, day out, I heard your prayers. That literally drove me out of my mind. Lucifer (you realize that Lucifer is the devil, oda? O.o "") then promised to leave me behind if I made a pact with him. Of course I didn't miss the fact that this guy was more than interested in me. And let's be honest, he looked damn good. Not like you imagine a devil to be. Well, .. he said to me: "You can do what you want on earth. You can no longer die, only by my hand. So, listen carefully, you must never, really never, from someone you know about everything love to be cheated on. That is the only service. No more. And, .. if someone dares, I'll come and take you with me. " Alex paused, took a deep breath and went on, "That means something like that if my love is not returned and someone would tell me to my face that they don't love me ... then ..."

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That was my story.You certainly don't want to know who broke my heart and why. But it wouldn't be wise to stop now either, so I'll go on.

Who got married? It was Vincent that idiot. You are probably wondering who was so stupid and wanted to be his wife Jessica Hawkings. I hate her, I hate Vincent ... why not? You will still find out what happened, although it is very difficult for me.

I still remember exactly how I opened my eyes on that gray, rainy day. I was almost numb and just didn't want to get up. My long black hair was ruffled over my shoulders, but I didn't care. I just cried yesterday evening. I found out about Vincent's wedding. It was unbearable, this guy was with me and I found out the next day that he wanted to get married.
But not me, no, why should I ?! It had to be this Jessica of all people. I still don't understand why he didn't at least break up with me.I continued to lie motionless until my brother came into my room. "Do you want to eat or drink something? You haven't eaten anything for two days, I'm worried ..." he said quietly but audibly. At these words, I turned and looked at him, but still didn't say a word. Billie sighed vigorously. "Should I get Keira?", He growled, "Since recently you've only been talking to her and I'm air, ..". "Who says you are air?" I asked quietly and barely audible. Billie looked at me in silence. "Tell me. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately?", He asked worried, "You look like a ghost. You are totally pale and almost completely emaciated, ..". He was silent. I looked away. Actually, he should have known why I was so exhausted with my nerves. "Here, ..", he put a bouquet of flowers on my bedside table. I looked at him skeptically. "What is this? Who are the orchids from?" I asked, staring at the flowers. Who knew that orchids were my favorite flowers?Suddenly I became quite curious as I continued to look at the pretty flowers. Billie grinned at me. "They are from all your admirers, .." he said, still grinning broadly. I looked at him sarcastically. "I don't feel like being fooled today, .." With these words I finally managed to crawl out of bed after two days. I staggered out in silence. Billie got up and ran after me. "I'm sorry! It was just a stupid joke. The flowers are from your friends." He smiled, "They are very worried about you." I was silent. I didn't know that I would read my death sentence in less than five minutes. Without any premonitions I went down the stairs pitifully slowly so as not to fall. Billie ran into the kitchen ahead. "Do you want some tea? Or some coffee?" He called out to me. I didn't answer, just opened my eyes wide. Bill (so his name is bill, .. but sometimes I call him billie, .. I hope that doesn't confuse you ... ^^ °) looked out of the kitchen."Hey, .. what is it now?". I stared in silence at the envelope on which it read "Invitation" in nicely shaped letters.
Bill followed my gaze and then pulled the envelope away. "What is that?" I asked with a slightly trembling voice and noticed how I saw more and more blurred thanks to the tears.
"Uh ... oh that ...?", He quickly held up the envelope and pulled it away again. "I ... I was invited to a birthday!". I stood stiff as a doll. "Give me the envelope!" I said in a reasonably firm voice and held out my hand. "Why? You don't have to read it, .." he said nervously, avoiding eye contact. A tremendous anger rose in me. "GIVE ME THE SHIT ENVELOPE NOW!" With these words I tore the alleged invitation from his hand and ran up with it. Bill didn't run after me. He just stopped. Because of all the excitement and tears, I hadn't even noticed that the rain had already turned into a strong thunderstorm.The rain pounded on the window pane. I've been terrified of thunderstorms all my life, but at that moment it was just me, my anger, and the envelope. With trembling hands I opened it and pulled out the stationery. It felt like an eternity before I held the opened letter in my hand and read it.
My eyes scanned the lines and with each new one, I could hardly help but sob. How could he be so numb? He actually sent me an invitation to his wedding! Without thinking too much, I tear it up. In very small snippets until you couldn't decipher anything. With a cry of rage, I grabbed the flowers, including the flower vase, and threw them on the nearest wall with great anger. Then I screamed the pain from my soul until I had almost no voice. I drowned in tears and eased myself down on my bed. If I had had a knife with me at that moment ...!I would have given a lot for that.
The rest of the day I stayed in my room, as usual, and watched the storm. I had to talk to someone, get rid of my pain. I sat up, glanced at my door, then opened the window and climbed into the rain.
I was relieved that Keira lived near me and it took less than two minutes to get to her apartment.
Exhausted from the rain, tears and anger, I barely managed to knock on her door. Not a second later, the door was thrown open and Keira stood in front of me. She looked at me in horror and pity. The first thing I did, I hugged her! Very firmly, as if I never wanted to let go of her and began to cry bitterly again. She gently stroked my head and whispered soothing things. I caught myself again and now looked at her with a pained smile. "Just say he invited you too?" Keira asked shortly before going crazy. She pushed me into the living room.I sat down sniffing on the couch and completely forgot that I was soaking wet. "Keira, .. I decided to go there.". There was a great silence. I looked ruthlessly at the floor and said nothing. "I, .. are you aware of that?", She looked at me without expression. I had set myself a goal and now I wanted to keep it. "I would be happy if you would come with me. If I talk to him, it could be that he changes his mind ..." I was almost convinced that he would come back to me. "Alex, .. I think ... that that won't happen, but I'll come with you.", She looked at me smiling. I really wanted to try it and I was sure that I would make it.

On the day of the wedding, I dressed in black as night. On the one hand because I was black and on the other hand because I really mourned. I wasn't sure if I shouldn't show up. I checked myself once more in the mirror, then slowly ran down the stairs.As soon as I got downstairs, there was a knock. Keira stood in front of the door as discussed. I sighed one last time, then went out to her and headed for the church.

I had never felt as uncomfortable anywhere else as there. I sat shivering on the bench and stared at the floor. Someone grabbed my hand and squeezed it hard. I didn’t look up but clasped my hand. When the organ began, my eyes widened. Everyone in the hall rose, only I remained seated. Keira grabbed my arm and pulled me up. "Sing something softly and just concentrate on it!", Chris (a good friend of Alex! ^^) whispered to me. I smiled. Singing was one of my greatest passions, but with a tear-choked, shaky voice it certainly didn't sound very nice. Still, I began to sing softly while tears ran down my cheeks and I just stared silently straight ahead. When the