I sit alone at the window and wait for your return. You are looking. Looking for him! You hugged me one last time before you left. I am alone now. 3 months already. And I have a child under my heart. How long? How long will you keep me waiting until you come back. Your friends try to cheer me up. But I can't laugh when you're gone Only you always have that grin that cheers me up. Why did you just go I know you want to find him. Your brother. Even though he did a lot to you. Though you almost died because of him. But he's your brother. Your other half. You said you love me Where is your love I can't feel it. Please come back! I do not want to be alone. Every time I whisper the same words and you are not here. Didn't you promise me that you'll be back soon You're not here. Or is it? Every time it gets evening I can feel your closeness.Just why don't you show yourself. Do you find it fun to play with my feelings? I gave you my heart and you trusted me with a little secret. That you love me. You have never said it so honestly as when we said goodbye. Quiet so that your friends couldn't hear. You didn't know I was pregnant. But now?! Now you're gone like you've never been here. Your friends are no longer here either. Manta is gone, Ren and Run are gone and Ryu is gone too, on his motorcycle through the streets. I wouldn't care if you were just here. But you're not here. The tears trickle down my face. I cry just because of you! Because of you, because I love and miss you so much. But you can't even see it. I couldn't tell you either. Suddenly I hear a noise from the hallway. Are you that? Did you come back I've been waiting for 3 months. Could you be back No it is not you. It's just a cat.The cat you gave me back then. I slowly lift her up on my arm and stroke her fur. It's so comfortably warm and fluffy. I go back to my room quietly. When I sit down on the futon, the cat jumps away from me. She looks at me with strange eyes. What should I do? Maybe I should follow her Because that's what she wants. Another noise can be heard. But again it's not you, it's a boy from my cat. You don't know that, Zarya, my cat, has had kittens. 5 pieces. And they are all brown and white. The mother takes her child tenderly and brings it to the basket. I used to hate pets, but since you gave them to me, I've loved them. Smiling, I wipe the tears from my face. Time to go to town and shop. I have to fetch food for the cats. I don't need much for myself. Since you left, I'm not really hungry for it, but the child in my stomach is even more.When I put on my shoes and open the door, a gentle wind blows in my face. How pleasant that is. When I finish shopping and go back, I see a figure. She looks a lot like you, but it's not you. When I recognize him, I am immediately shocked. It's your twin, Hao. Because the one you are looking for. But you're not here. Yes you are. You stand next to him and when you see me, a smile appears on your lips. But I can't smile You are back and you didn't tell me anything. But you promised me. I run on quickly. I don't wanna see you I don't wanna talk to you Your voice calls for me but I don't hear it. Why did not you say anything? Why? Didn't you want to see me Or do you prefer your brother? When I get home I see that the door was open. Were you there? But why didn't you wait for me? Of course, surely your brother was waiting for you. When I go into the living room, something is waiting for me.Lots of red roses are scattered on the floor. How could you? A letter lies in the sea of ​​flowers. Can I read it without crying? Definitely not. Still, I fish him out of the red sea of ​​roses. What it says is not what I suspected. But why? Why does it say that you want to see me again when you're with your brother. Where are they? Your friends? Horo went to Hokkaido and Ren to China. Faust to Germany and Lyserg to England. Where are they? They left me alone like you left me alone. You will not believe? Don't you think I'll miss you? Oh, how wrong are you. In fact, I miss you very much. And why can't you come back to me? Because of Hao? Because of the other shamans? Because of your ... friends? You have nothing to do but lie to me. But this will change. I will go. You only have me
And your brother and your friends? I'm sorry, you could have had a child too.But you screwed it up. You will never be able to see the little one. Furious, I stomp into my room and pack a bag. Just what i need. I can get the other one sometime later. My parents' old house is waiting in Ozoresan. You are dead and it belongs to my big brother. But he promised me that I can always go there whenever I want. I want to go there now. Luckily you don't know where it is but I bet you'll find out quickly. But before you find out, I'll be out of there. "I'm sorry, I can't take you with me." I whisper to Sarja when she comes running to me. The bag is small and easy to carry. When it occurs to me that you will definitely come later, I pick up a piece of paper and a pen. I want to at least say goodbye. You didn't say hello to me, but I'm different from you. I know what's right. When the small bag slides to the floor and the pen falls out of my hand, I am hugged from behind."Please don't go." you say to me Why didn't i hear anything? How did you get in here. "Please Yo. Don't make it harder for me than it already is." I answer. You know that I will go Even you can't stop me. "Why Anna? I know I should have told you, but it really didn't work." I turn around furiously and shake his arms away from me. "Go away. I don't want to see you. Just because it's your brother? But you made a promise to me. Do you remember? That you will come back to me. You will come to me in a moment when you are back in Japan." And how long have you been in Japan? "You are silent when you walk in. I look into your face, which is sad but also angry. "Anna, if you've read the letter then you know why I couldn't come." "Because of Silver? Because of Godva and because of the great spirit? That I don't laugh. I know. Silver told me a month ago. Still Doesn't it explain the fact why you didn't come home"A small tear is running down my cheek. Because you lied to me. Because you promised me something and didn't keep it. That's the only reason. That's the only reason I have to cry, and that in front of you too." Anna. If you are honest with yourself only once, then you will know why I could not help you because to overcome pain. "" Man Yo, I'm pregnant. From you. Or did you not know? Didn't your brother tell you? I know he knew. You can't hide anything from him. But you will have a son and that is far more important. "" Anna, I didn't know you were pregnant. But why do you want to go "" Because you lied to me? Because you left me alone Because… "I can't go on talking. You hug me even though you know I'm angry. You want to blow my anger away like you always did before. But not this time. This time I'll go without that I'll be considerate of you."I'm sorry Yo, but I'll go. It doesn't matter if you want to stop me or not." I say to you. "Please don't. You have a child in here and where are you going?" "What's that to do with you? Well, it's your child too, but I'll be fine with it. You don't care where I'm going and what I'm doing. And now let go of me, you ... "I desperately try to free myself from the embrace. But you are too strong I don't want to hit you, I still love you. But please let go of me "Yo, please. Just let me go. Please." "No, Anna. I'm here, I couldn't come earlier. If you don't want to believe me, I'll hold you as long as I can." "No. , Yo. You're hurting me. Please, let go of me. I don't want to stay here. I want to get out of here and think about everything. But please, give me time. "" Time? Where for? To run away ? You ... "" No. I just need a little time to make everything clear to myself."Slowly you loosen the hug. You look into my eyes but I turn away. When I want to reach for the bag, you give it to me." D ... Thanks Yo. "" How long? " "I dont know. "" You know I'll find you anywhere, no matter where you are. If it takes me too long, I'll come to you. "You caress my cheek tenderly, but I take your hand and squeeze it." Just a little time, that's all I want. And if you want, you can visit your friends and your grandparents. They won't be pleased that Hao is alive, but that you live is more important to them. "" Anna, I'll wait. Wait until you're ready to tell me what you want. "" Thank you, Yo. "I take the bag and go to the door. You look after me sadly. You want to wait? No, I'll wait. Wait until the time comes to love you as you have become now. A liar." and a tactless fool. But I know no matter what you are I will love you, because I've always loved you and I will always love you.But now I have to go. Because you wanted it that way. You didn't say it, but I could read it in your eyes. But why did you become like this? I can't hear the answer because I can't ask these questions out loud. You'd just laugh about it. Hao is sitting on a roof and watching me go. I knew he was watching me the whole time I walk to the train station. And you are watching me too. But you don't want to speak to me. How so? Because of your brother. If I don't do anything, you'll become like him. But I'm too weak to help you First I have to figure out to myself why I should love you. Because you are how you are. But you've changed since we said goodbye. I get on the train sadly. Please don't chase me. 'Cause I know you don't love me anymore

All the best, Yo.
'Cause I know we'll never see each other again