I can not anymore. My heart threatens to break apart and every day will be unbearable for me. No matter what I do, you keep hurting me even though you've been very close to me. I can no longer see your faces and I no longer want to hear your voices. Your words are like a sharp knife that pierces my heart. But you don't even notice how you're hurting me and you can't stop sticking the knife in my heart. It hurts terribly, but I'm not saying anything. It would be of no use, because you will never be able to understand me. I let everything go in silence and cry quietly every night. At the same time, I ask myself a thousand questions to which I don't get an answer. Why are you hurting me? What did i do to you Why can't you just leave me alone? Finally stop hurting me! I just can't take it anymore ...
I choose to ignore you guys. And although the wounds still hurt, I distanced myself a little from you and built a small wall around me.I thought my wounds could heal. But suddenly the wall falls apart. On the day when I wasn't expecting it, you suddenly ask me why I am not talking to you and ignoring you? You tell me that I am a terrible person because I distanced myself from you? You ask me why I am doing this to you? You've been causing me pain for ages and then suddenly I'm the one hurting you? Sorry, but I cannot answer these questions. It is too late. My heart already has too many scars that cannot go away and my tears have dried up. You cannot change the past anymore. No, you shouldn't change them either. My heart has finally frozen. I will never be able to forgive you. No way…!

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