The night wind blew through his hair; they flew up and landed gently on his back again without him noticing. His feet were sore, but he didn't care. He hadn't eaten in days and hadn't slept either. He felt too bad for that. The hanyou thought he had to spit it all out again immediately. Where was Kagome? Where was that kind-hearted, wonderful creature gone? Where was the woman he loved more than anything?

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore

He would do anything to find out their point of view, really[i]anything. He would die, expose himself, help his brother, Sesshoumaru ... Inuyasha would do anything. No matter what it was, he would do it. He would allow himself to be humiliated just to have the slightest inkling of where Kagome was or how she was doing.To die for it didn't sound so horrible to his ears. For love you also did what otherwise sounded horrible. Yes, because he loved Kagome. More than he could ever love Kikyou.

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here

Why was she gone? He felt so bad as if his heart had been ripped out of his chest. Was it too much for her? All the demons ... Naraku ... and then Kikyou too? Actually it was understandable. No mortal could hold out like this for long, especially if they came from another world. From a world where everything was better. Where demons weren't a point of the day. Why did she come back to this era ?! It would have been better if she had never shown up! It had been a mistake for her to stay here. He hated himself for it.You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause every time I think of both of you
It's killing me inside
And now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness of living without you
And oh, I don't know what to do
[i]Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

It made him furious not to know where she was! She just didn't deserve the loneliness! Inuyasha could - and above all[i]wanted- understand that she had chosen it herself. She just didn't deserve it !!
The thought of her loneliness consumed him from within. He knew how lonely loneliness could be. That was the reason why he couldn't quite see through hermits. Who could voluntarily choose this oppressive loneliness? That was something that was beyond his horizons, which - to be honest - wasn't difficult either.
Inuyasha Kagome would like to share something. He tipped his head back and stared at the sky.Most of it was covered by the dark treetops, but the stars were clearly visible. Just like the wind that blew around him. Would the wind carry its message to Kagome ...? Well, he could let go of a try.
"Kagome," he whispered softly. "You have to know that I am lonely when you are not with me. Since you disappeared, loneliness has hung over me like a shadow that I cannot get rid of." The wind brushed his lips as if he wanted to show the dog boy that he took the words with him. The tree trunks creaked in the wind and their crowns rustled softly to themselves.

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here

A bird sat in one of the rustling treetops. The cold, pale disc of the moon was reflected in his eyes, in which there was a sad glow. He thought of the lady bird to whom his little bird heart belonged.For them he had even given up his turf without a fight. If she came back to him, he wouldn't care. He let out a sad whistle.

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew, I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
No, no

Inuyasha didn't know what to do. He wasn't at all sure if he could hold out. What if she hated him profoundly now? Then what should he do? After all, she had reason enough. By now he had realized himself that he had hurt her by meeting Kikyou. He idiot, why did he only realize that now ?!
What should he tell her when he found her? He did not know. He didn't want any more. The only thing he wanted was for Kagome to be with him again. That was Inu Yasha's only wish. Nothing seemed so precious to him now as this one wish.

I hate myself for losing youI'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
[i]What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here

He clung to that one desperate wish. Only this wish ensured that the half demon simply threw himself here on the grass. When Inuyasha glanced up into the star-studded sky, he saw a falling star. He clapped his hands in confusion and made a wish. What he wished for is not known, but it should be known.

What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why she left you in the end
How do you cry when every day you said
Don't ever bring her back again

[i]I hate myself for losing you

He hated herself for her loss, for which he seemed to be to blame. The trees creaked in the wind. The Hanyou closed his eyes and slowly walked on, towards Kagome.
Behind him a bird rose from a treetop into the night sky.