Understanding
The hardest thing that can hit you
No matter if human or shaman
To know that it was all in vain
and you have to bear the blame for your actions alone

truth
To be damned forever
Despite understanding and penance, never to be allowed to live again as before
to be hated in every new life
is a difficult fate

forgiveness
Something that you don't expect and shouldn't expect
Therefore not even can
But not because one is denied this
But because you will never recognize them until you have forgiven yourself for your actions
But how, when you live all alone in a world that seems to stand against you down to the last

Hopes
Therefore long gone.
Buried in deep darkness and grief, new protective walls were built
Only to protect the rest of his own existence
Which one can no longer endure oneself

To die
Such a simple solution ... but unfortunately completely pointless because it never seems to end
Knowing what you've done will remain ... no matter how many times you die.
Likewise the hatred of others
Seeing and feeling that you stand alone for free
Nothing has changed as a result of everything, is unbearable and lets the shadows grow

rescue
Help from someone else ... who doesn't hate you
The only thing you want now ... unfortunately not hoped for
Just finally not being lonely anymore, feeling that you are not hated by everyone
Even if it was just one soul ... it would give you that much
The last and only wish ... to be loved and protected.

tears
That's why we've cried so often, mute and never shown
ram your way by the dozen ... without anyone noticing
Except who says it
Such simple words that mean so much
I forgive you
Stay with me
I love you

Three words
Hardly worth talking about and feelings, now they have a completely new status
Let the wall crumble through confusion.Unstoppable without you noticing
But also no longer want ... the desire to be with you again is too great
To be finally loved and secure again ...

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So I hope you enjoyed the beginning, because please consider one thing at this point. Even if only one poem has cost me at least 5 hours to get it right, finished and corrected for me, but not only me but also my co-author and my beta reader each chapter costs at least 3 hours and more.
In other words, if you also read something, write something about this, because a picking does not cost 2 minutes, but this chapter takes several hours of writing ^ .-