I found myself in my room one more time, because my actions again resulted in unpleasant consequences, which is why I was locked up there again. It wasn't nice, but on the other hand it also made me a little happy because at least I wasn't under control all the time, even if someone was standing in front of the door, but I was alone. I sat down on my bed, pulled my legs up and laid my head on my arms with which I had encircled my legs and so sank into my thoughts.

How was it a normal life to have family and friends? I didn't know because my brother and I were deported to our grandfather's as children because our parents didn't want us. So we never learned what parental love and affection was. Because even our grandfather did not care about us as it should have been. We were brought up strictly and were forbidden to make mistakes. If someone happened to us, it always had consequences, no matter how small and insignificant it may have been.

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So that's it for now ^ - ^
I would be happy about clerks
your 秋 (Aki)