now what's big to say here? I just wanted to write the pain of my soul. oh and please don't be surprised. i never write in capital letters on the pc unless it is absolutely necessary. :)
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'…' Means that the person in question thinks and does not speak out loud
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I don't need to explain more.
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Pointless Death by Doran (short story)
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the rain pelted against the window. the sky darkened, the rain pounded harder and harder against the pane and flowed down on it. 'Even heaven cries.' she thought to herself. It was quiet in her room, only the wind hissed through the old, leaky windows. the rain pattered in a rhythm. fast and many drips, then again slowly and few. just like the wind was blowing right now. tears rolled down her cheeks and down her chin. a small tear dripped down from her chin onto her hand, directly onto a thin, elongated scar.she stroked it lightly with her finger and spread the tear on the scar. then the scar reminded her of something. 'She was still very little and shy. i just wanted to lure her to milk, but she was still a little afraid of me. she hid behind a bundle of straw. she was very thin and emaciated. if she hadn't eaten, she would have starved to death. so I fast fast. she kicked and scratched my left hand 2 times. but when she saw the pot with the milk, she became calm. I put her down and she drank. then I tried to stroke her on the back. at first it twitched, but then it snuggled into my hand. At first she continued to drink, but when I continued to stroke and scratch her, she began to purr and ignored the milk. it sounded beautiful. a feeling of happiness and joy overcame me. I'll never forget it. it was unique and no purr can be compared to another.but they all embody joy and comfort. but this being will never again be able to shine from the whole soul. now death has brought them. he grabbed her and carried her away, without warning, without mercy. Why did this small and inconspicuous soul, which is so important to me, have to leave the earth again so quickly, even though it was only recently brought into being? Then why was she sent to earth in the first place? WHY… I keep asking myself… WHY?!? ' the rain just wouldn't stop. he kept knocking on her window and got stronger and stronger. the sky seemed to break! Do other living beings have to decide about the life or death of another soul? why did you do it? they growled, barked, and bared their teeth. in twos they pounced on this little soul. Just why? who screamed and screamed. no more meow, no more purring. no feeling of happiness. just fear and pain. now my ears are still booming. ' "Stop it!!!" screamed the girl, clenching her ears."You're welcome!" again and again she remembered these cries for help. ,Why? through instincts? but what does such an instinct bring us? it evokes senseless violence. but they are not to blame for their actions either. otherwise they are so kind and sensitive. nevertheless I had to punish her. I also used violence in the same way. but I couldn't help it. as she lay in our yard and took her last breaths until she lay there very calmly, a huge anger rose in me. I was trembling so much with anger and sadness. but didn't they deserve the punishment? the next day I had made up my mind. not looking at them or paying attention to them. but I couldn't. their shining eyes beamed at me and they wagged their tails. they begged me to forgive them. ' she wiped away her tears and looked out the window. the clouds loosened and a few rays of sunlight shone through them easily. now she finally had that purring in her ear again. she smiled gently and spoke in a low and tearful voice: "goodbye little kitten.goodbye! "
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as you can see it's not fanfic. i need a little more for my real fanfiction. as you can imagine, it will be trading on dragonballZ. so far i have 50 handwritten pages and a little more. at the moment i have a problem with my ideas :) so i won't be finished with this ff until the beginning of 2003 at the earliest. after all, it should be another 50 pages.
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so see you then your doran
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oh yes and at this point I would like to recommend a very good writer.
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Caricaro writes the best FF I have ever read. you should definitely read through "my bed your bed" from her, otherwise you have really missed something.
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