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Though things took a different turn on the show, this is "wishful thinking fanfic."
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It was created on the day Vegeta and Gokou merged while fighting Buu. There are things that I've wanted to hear them say for a long time, but that haven't been said yet and I feared they'd never be said in the anime. I am certainly not the first to have the idea of ​​an exchange at this point, this is my version and it has nothing to do with Yaoi or Shonen Ai tu.
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An Endless Moment - The Fusion of Vegeta and Gokou
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The Potara earrings glowed. Relieved of the nervousness when he did not want to hold the earring, but still not completely convinced that he was doing the right thing, Vegeta was pulled towards Gokou, his toes dragging over the rubble that had been strewn all over the place from Buu's last attack. What did he have to lose? Kakerott had stolen the victory from his half-hearted fight back then, and Buu had devoured Bulma and Trunks.Even if he lost himself in the merger, there was no one there who was worth staying for who and what he was.
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The pull was irresistible. He saw Kakerott's twisted, glowing face come towards him. Did tears shine in his eyes? If anyone had something to cry on, it would be him, Kakerott did it voluntarily, right? Their bodies touched, a brief moment of heat, then he felt his body dissolve. Damn it, that was a strange feeling. A flash of light and suddenly it was as if time had stopped. He and Kakerott floated in a ball of light, shimmering like a giant Potara earring.
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* This is the moment of decision *, Gokou sent to him. Neither of them could speak and neither could they move. * Whether this merger succeeds or not depends entirely on our will. The Potara got us this far, we have to do the rest ourselves. *
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Vegeta knew that this sentence was addressed to him above all.Gokou wanted to do the thing, he didn't have to bring himself to do it first.
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* Is there finally something hanging on me, the eternal second and failure? *, the bitterness in his voice could not be suppressed.
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* Self-pity does not lead to anything *, it came from Gokou, * I have already apologized. *
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* Pahh! * Vegeta mentally crossed his arms and turned away, too stupid that he couldn't actually do that. * Can I buy some of these? *
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* What do you want then *, came Gokou, astonished. * I always thought that Bulma gave you your pocket money generously. *
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If Vegeta could have shaken his head now, he would have done it and also gripped his forehead. Was ultra naivety a prerequisite for ultra power? If so, then this universe had a screw loose ...
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* I meant that your apology was not meant seriously, * he hissed.<br />
Gokou managed the trick of looking bent, even though he couldn't move a muscle. * I didn't mean to hurt you ... *
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* Since, unlike me, you have no trace of pride, I cannot imagine that you could even have guessed what you were doing to me with your half-heartedness. I wasn't worth switching to Super Saiyan 3, right? You can handle me that way too, you thought .... You didn't take me seriously since you let me crawl into the capsule back then, I was an inferior opponent for you because I was defeated and will always be will....*
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* You're on the wrong track! * Gokou's mental protest echoed in Vegeta's head. * You are the best thing that has happened to me since Piccolo 2. *
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Vegeta flinched. With the upcoming merger, all boundaries had fallen, he could feel without a doubt that Gokou meant every word he said seriously. Since he could not raise an eyebrow, he sent his amazement over to Gokou as a feeling without words, absolutely certain that he understood every one of his feelings.<br />
* You know better than I do that you can only grow with your opponents. Since I narrowly defeated Piccolo in the tournament, there has been no one to push me further. He and I were almost even, there was no huge hurdle and therefore no need to grow excessively fast. He and I would have bobbed around at about the same level for ages if you hadn't come. Nobody has ever demanded so much respect from me and awakened such an urgent desire to get better and better .... Training with God at that time was hard for me, but that was God's idea and not my own wish. Freezer, Cell, all of them may have been stronger, and it was necessary to fight them, but not a trace of pleasure. On the other hand, I would have loved to cross blades with you at the tournament, as the crowning glory of my day off. *
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*Oh yes? *, the sarcastic undertone underscored Vegeta's doubts. * Then why did you let me down when it came to a fight that you supposedly wanted too. *<br />
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* Didn't I already say that? We only had one bean left, I planned to share it with you so I didn't want to hurt you so badly that half a bean wasn't enough to patch you back together. *
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* And you thought your second tier was enough to bring me to my knees, admit it! *
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*Is it that bad? *
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* It's damn arrogant and I hate arrogance. *
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* Wait a minute, don't you always come up with the 'I'm so much better than anyone' kind of thing, or did I get something wrong? *
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*This is something else. After all, I am a prince and you are only the son of a third class warrior. You are mass-produced. *
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Since there was no reaction from Gokou, Vegeta went into detail: * Why, why did inferior nobody like you manage to outdo me. I'm older, I have the more valuable genes, I've had hard training from childhood and still, anyway ... * It was an outcry against the injustice of the universe, desperation, bitterness, anger, incomprehension ...<br />
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Gokou waited until Vegeta had let everything out. Any kind of sympathy would be out of place now, what Vegeta needed was a kick in his four letters.
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* How long are you going to hold this against my grandfather? * he asked, mentally shaking his head.
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Vegeta emerged from his sea of ​​self-pity and frowned in thought. * Huh? *
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* You probably expected that I would also apologize for falling on my head as a child, but you have to stick to my grandfather and he didn't let me down on purpose ... *
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Since Vegeta apparently only understood the train station, Gokou continued: * Without this fall, I would have become a vicious Saiyan like you were. But thanks to the change I was able to develop a side that was never allowed to show itself with you and you just missed this 'pure heart'. *
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*What a crap! I also managed to become a Super Saiyan with my black heart. *<br />
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* Did you make the jump before or after you started falling in love with Bulma ...? *
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* Ummmm .... * Vegeta cursed the telltale blush on his face and the fact that he couldn't turn it away to hide it.
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* There you have it *, Gokou said with satisfaction. * You just took longer to allow this pure feeling. And the jump to level two, didn't you come with Trunks, your son, whom you love like every father his child, even if you only showed him shortly before your death? Not the universe, not me and especially not you are to blame for your deficit towards me. It's just the fact that you Saiyans got things wrong. Your much-vaunted heartlessness and hardness made you the horror of the universe, but they were like lead on your feet, and from a certain level you simply couldn't make any progress, so you had nothing to oppose Freezer ... *<br />
Vegeta was amazed to hear so many words from Gokou. He realized how little he actually knew his archenemy. Despite or perhaps because of his naivete, Gokou saw many things with the clear gaze of a child and called them by name without putting a pink bow on them with trite phrases.
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Why do I hate him? Vegeta wondered. Why do I want to see him crawl in the dust in front of me? Because he showed me that you can reach the highest level without having to forego the luxury of love, friendship and trust? Because he always shows me how useless, how futile it was to lock my soul, my heart in ice? I lived my father's way, his way to get closer to Freezer, his way to become more like Freezer, to make Freezer atone one day. If I had known that this would block my way to my true strength instead of opening it ... I don't hate him, I hate my stupidity, my blindness ...<br />
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* ... you would not have survived *, Gokou sent him with a flood of warmth and just this feeling of understanding and friendship, which Vegeta would have dismissed as a compassionate ape even before their merger. But now that he could read Gokou as Gokou read him, he saw the outstretched hand, he felt the respect and respect that he had believed Gokou could not feel towards him. He also respected Gokou. He couldn't hide that any more than his gratitude for the twice given life, the home he had been able to find on Gokou's world, love, family, none of this would have been possible without Gokou ... since when had he passed To see Kakerott as Gokou, as a being of this world and no longer as a failed Saiyan?
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Yes, he would not have survived in Feezer's world if he had already followed Gokou's path back then, had fought to protect, had shown compassion ... his path had been further than Gokous, more rocky and tortuous.He hadn't slowed down, but he had missed a few short cuts since he was on Earth ...
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* That is over now. When we are one, then my power is yours as yours will be mine. Then there are no more first and second, then there is only one common victory over Buu. We're over him, I'm sure. Somehow we manage to find the Dragon Balls and bring