A journey into the world of fantasy!

Part 36

There I was back in my room and didn't know what to do! But I ran over to the bed and fell backwards on it! My legs dangled down over the edge of the bed. I checked my watch briefly, 2:27 pm! >> Only half past two and I don't know what to do! Ohhhhh mannnnnn! << I thought bored! Straightened me up again and took off my shoes. Then I lay down completely on the big bed, but on my stomach. I tilted my head on the right side. So I dozed for a while. When that became too colorful for me I lay down on my right side, then some time later on the left, then again on my back. It went on like this for a long time. I really didn't know what to do with myself during this time. A bad state! ^ - ^ "

>> Let's see what the watch says now ...... Aha .... 15:15! Great ... we have it as late as yesterday!<< ^ - ^ "" "

Groaning, I let my right arm fall next to me on the bed! SCHWUPP! Now I lay down on my stomach again and crawled like a seal to the other side of the bed. Once there, I let my head and my arms dangle over the edge of the bed. (Do you also know such a boring mood? That is completely corrosive!

I looked at the floor. Then I turned my gaze to the right. Now, for the first time, I saw the little bedside cabinet next to the bed! >> Where did that come from? Has that always been here? I never noticed it until now! Not even then! << ^ - ^ "" (Something like that should happen!)

For a few moments my gaze was fixed on this cupboard, then lowered my gaze to the floor again. Immediately afterwards looked to the left. At the end of the bed side were my travel bag and backpack. >> My travel bag and my backpack! Ey my travel bag still has to be cleared out! That means I have something to do!It's not much, but at least it is! <<

I slowly got out of bed and went over to my travel bag. I put my folder with the Magic Cards + the loose cards on the bed. My velvet coat came in the closet with my other clothes! I put my angel stature on the small bedside cabinet, to the left of the bed. I also put the three small but fine jewelry boxes, which were filled to the top with jewelry of all kinds, on the cabinet. I also took out my self-burned computer CD, even if at the moment I really didn't know what to do with it! I didn't have a PC anymore. But who knows. Maybe I would come to one later! Even if it was just a portable one.

The last thing I did was get out my fighting staff. >> So ... that's it. Nothing left in your pocket! Pity! Should have packed more! << ^ - ^ "

I put the empty travel bag on the floor to the right of the wardrobe!I put my backpack on the floor to the right of the bedside cabinet. Sitting back on the bed, I grabbed the magic card folder and looked briefly at the cards. Then I closed it again and put it on the floor on the left, between the cupboard and bed! So everything was done and the boredom came back! Again I lay back completely on the bed. But this time properly, with the head on the pillow! I closed my eyes and thought of nothing! Allowing the calm to work on me, I began to get tired. I slowly fell asleep.

When I came to I was on my right side. My eyes were on the window. It was still day. but it was already getting dark! I checked my watch automatically, 7:53 p.m.

I got up slowly. I had to go to the toilet! ^ - ^ "(Must be, right?) After this accomplished thing * g *, I ran to the room window and looked out. On the right below me I saw the large platform but nobody was to be seen!No dende, no bottom, no piccolo!

>> Oh Piccolo ... I miss you. Miss your closeness! I wished I was with you! May hug you! Talk to you! << I thought sadly and looked at the platform. But suddenly I turned around and stared at the room door. Should i do it? >> Why not? << The thought occurred to me and ran to the room door. Opened this and left my room! I ran down the aisle on the left. Three rooms down and stopped in front of his. >> This is his room as Popo told me. So then! <<

I knocked three times and actually without knowing whether he was in his room at all. I listened briefly, nothing could be heard! I automatically put my right hand on the doorknob and pushed it down. The door wasn't locked! I opened it a crack and quietly walked inside. In the middle of the room, floating on the floor, he sat cross-legged and meditated! He was sitting with his back to me.

I closed the door quietly and took maybe two or three small steps towards him.

"What do you want?" he asked in his typical, rough tone! I didn't know what to answer him. "I i...!" it just came from me and looked at the ground. Piccolo made no sound, no movement.

He didn't exactly make the entry on me as if he had really missed me the past few months.

Should I tell him what was bothering me? Should I tell him I cared about him? How would he react to that?

"Go!" he suddenly said calmly and I looked up. Looked at him from behind and didn't know what to do, think, feel. I was all confused. He didn't want me with him!

A few whole moments passed when he said again: "Go!"

This time it came a little more firmly from him. I stared at the floor for a moment. Then I turned around quietly and walked back to the door.Without saying a word, I opened the large door to the room, ran out into the corridor and closed the door behind me again. I ran quietly back to my room. When I got there I stood in front of my bed again and started to cry. I cried softly, I didn't want anyone else to hear me!

>> Goku was wrong ..... he doesn't miss me, not in the least! << I thought weeping softly. Didn't Piccolo say when we said goodbye 14 months ago that he loved me? Hadn't he changed that much? Just like Goku said. Piccolo was partly like it used to be? The love in his heart had diminished? Did he even like me in any white at all?

It really seemed like he didn't feel anything for me anymore. But then why did he want me to come back here? Yes, why was I here at all? >> I came with you Piccolo because I love you and I believed that you loved me too.I gave up everything for you. My home, my friends, acquaintances, my family! I turned my back on everyone just to be near you ... and now? Now you don't want me with you anymore .....! It hurts.....! <<

I lay curled up on the bed and cried soft, thick tears. >> Why only? What I have done wrong? << I thought as tormented and closed my eyes. I slowly fell asleep crying and deeply and firmly.

So five more days of peace and solitude in the palace of God passed for me. I spent most of the time in my room. I didn't bother Piccolo again during this time. In fact, I didn't even know if he was still in the palace. I hadn't even seen him for the past few days. It made me very, very sad, my inner being longed for him. Yes it literally screamed! But he didn't come to me. I had often cried in my room, too, I knew neither on nor off.Here and there I had also talked to Popo and Dende. About everything and if it was just the weather, it doesn't matter! Or help Popo a little with his work. So the time went by.

Now, I was sitting on one of the trees outside on the platform and enjoying the blue sky and the warm rays of the sun. With Dende's permission, I had fetched a book from the great palace library. So many books there were only most of them were either in Namek or some other language I didn't know! ^ - ^ "But luckily not all of them. Of the few that I could read, I picked one that was packed with many poems. Very nice poems! I just finished reading one about nature and turned to the next page.> "A love poem? As if that fits me!" I thought sadly. Locked the book and laid it on the floor next to me. For a long time I looked into the blue sky. Briefly, I looked straight ahead at the edge of the platform .Dende stood there and looked down at the earth. I smiled briefly. >> Dende is a good God for this earth! << I thought and looked out into the sky again. Everything was calm, peaceful. As always up here! ^ - ^ "

>> Picco ..... when will I see you again? Can i feel your closeness? Where are you? Do you even still like me? << I thought sadly again. Through Dende I found out yesterday that Piccolo was actually no longer up here in the palace. He had flown down to earth the very next day after I came to his room and he sent me off. He wanted to be to himself again. Far from his friends, far from me. I was just wondering again why I was actually here when Piccolo no longer loved me! Diana's words came back to my mind: "If at some point you are no longer happy or he is no longer nice to you, then please come back!"

>> Oh Diana! It would have been better to stay with all of you.I would have saved myself a lot of heartache and pain. Maybe I should ask Bulma to send me back! Back home! Is probably better. Better for Piccolo, better for me. Piccolo feels like it is left behind by my closeness. If I'm no longer there, it will be better for him too << I thought very sadly and would have loved to cry again.

I would have loved to be all alone for a few days now. Alone in a place where nobody else was but me. A place where I can relax, relax. Recovering from the last 14 months of longing and pain for Piccolo. And rest to relieve the grief and pain that I now felt about Piccolo. A very nice place came to mind. A place that I had somehow secretly missed all along. But how should I get there? I couldn't leave here. For that I would have to be able to fly.

>> Oh! Why does it all seem so injustice? <<

Sadly, I got up from the floor and ran over to Dende. Halfway there I saw someone suddenly come up to us from below and land at Dende on the edge of the platform. It was Gohan. I raised my step and ran towards him.