So where do i start?

I suspect it happened when I first came to police headquarters and was assigned her as a partner so I could learn how to behave properly in different situations. Her beauty took my breath away and left me speechless as well. She was my supervisor, even though we were only two years apart.

At the time I thought that it would be enough for me to be her partner, to be by her side when she needs help and to take care of her when she doesn't. I later realized that it wasn't enough for me ... not since he came.

Shiratori.

“Ah, Takagi.” Here he comes. "How did it go yesterday? You got him, didn't you? Oh, wait ... I heard that you didn't guard him properly and that's why he got away from you. As Sato's partner, you shouldn't make such mistakes."

He put his hand on my shoulder and looked at me. “You look exhausted. I think you should take a week or two off and relax.I wouldn't mind representing you for so long. "

And then what? Claim Sato all to yourself? "No thanks," I said, taking his hand off my shoulder. "I'm good."

"Takagi! What are you doing again? Come here!", Sato yelled through the bureau.

"Come!" I called back and turned to Shiratori. "I have to go, see you." I said, entered the room, closed the door behind me and was already waiting for Inspector Megure's lecture.

I took a deep breath and listened to Megure's lecture. "Look at you, Takagi! Another criminal escaped because of you! That's why you weren't promoted! Aren't you careful? Other men in this department are more reliable than you!"

Bla bla bla. I really accept Inspector Megure, but really piss someone off at times. He's like a grandfather scolding his grandson. I sighed and he continued.

"... You have a lot of potential. You are not stupid and in good physical shape.You could easily get promoted if you were more careful and working harder. If you ever get married and have a family, I don't see how she is supposed to survive! "

That hit me. But he was right: I am useless and even if I love Sato more than anything, a family cannot survive through love alone. Now something comes to mind that I haven't thought of yet.

Sure I love her and she would give me a chance. But I am of a lower rank than them. Should we get married, she would be the one taking care of the family. That would be too much for them. And what can I do? Nothing. If I make more mistakes, I might get fired and then ... live a life as Mr. Mouri's assistant.

I sighed at the thought and took a pat on the hand. "Are you listening, Takagi?" Yelled Megure.

"Yes, inspector."

I managed to concentrate on his words for a while, but then I thought about our relationship again.Maybe we wouldn't stay together for long ... maybe we end up like Mr. Mouri and his wife ... maybe ... maybe Shiratori would be a better choice for them. He's smarter, more wealthy, of higher rank, and he loves her. He can possibly give her anything she wants: cars, houses, jewelry, and a good family. I, on the other hand, can only offer her my rented apartment, my rental car and my mother's costume jewelry. All I can promise her is love: the love that no man could give her.

... but what use is that to me if I can't offer what is most necessary in life?

"If this continues, you'd better start looking for a new job.", Megure finished his lecture and turned to Sato. "Sato, I hope you will keep an eye on him now."

"Yes, inspector.", She answered and Megure left.

Maybe it's time to give up.