I * g * yo again ... I just wanted to write a poem again (... I have to be sick ... that is no longer normal ... ~. ^) and that came out of it .. ... ^^ °

this time I dedicate it ..... hm .. to whom do I dedicate it .... yes exactly * has an idea * my super dear _NeKoChAn_ ^^ so that my biscuit can also be dedicated xD * gg * lüpz düsch, bisksü X)

so, enough said, let's go:

Sorrow, Pain and Distress

We seemed happy, but we were playing the wrong game.

I left and you did it - it was too much for both of us.

I intended to come back to you sometime

But you only looked thoughtfully at your plan.

Only a short time later I found out about what you had done.

Now nobody gave me any advice.

Countless tears have been shed

Yet only a few people embraced.

From now on I was on my own

It doesn't matter if I like it or if I don't like it.

It was the truth and reality, cold and hard.

And if I have been waiting forever for better times ’.This situation - is it all my fault?

I think so, because then I lost all my patience.

Didn't want to put up with it any longer and left you.

I ran away while you were finished - I am the reason for that.

You played with me, you hurt me!

,Go to hell! ’- so I cursed you!

I wish I would never see you again;

Couldn't and wouldn't understand.

Why did I suffer so much then as now?

I'm still trying to avoid all people.

Live withdrawn and hidden,

Just and alone with my worries.

You told me you'd love me forever

Couldn't put the truth off before you any longer.

I believed you, trusted you.

Was blind, didn't see through the lie.

It wasn't what I thought it would be.

That was exactly the mistake I made back then.

Later I left without a word, left you alone

Didn't want to be with you anymore.Not after what you did to me

You had wasted your chances with me.

I panicked, afraid of doing the wrong thing.

But even today I can't rest.

The reason for this has remained the same:

You - to whom I have dedicated my heart.

I still often wonder how many mistakes one can make.

But I never find an exact answer, I can't get it.

I just know that there can be many - too many.

There are enough examples of this.

Only one thing is clear to me

How it is and how it was;

It is me who makes all the mistakes.

Fall into disaster like a deep well.

Nobody will help me, I know that.

And this very truth pains me.

I've finished with my life

I haven't enjoyed anything since I lost you.

I followed your example, put an end to everything.

Then everything took a turn.

But not the ones I wanted to reach.

I still don't know what that was about.

Inevitable as it is, it comes as it had to come;I return to you - as if I already knew it then!

Here our paths now cross again.

It doesn't take long before I regret what I did.

Now I'm still wavering

My thoughts revolve around so many things.

But in the real sense, there is only one reason;

You - I only give you this single word.

Do i really hate you Are not appearances deceiving?

From now on I'll always be by your side

Whether I want it or not, it's decided.

Fate wants it as it is!