I `m ill?

I sit here and wonder, am I sick?
I fall asleep thinking, will there be something tomorrow?
Rolling around in bed can't sleep
But at some point I sleep, finally I too.
Then I get up in the morning
why am i excited?
My thoughts are going crazy
will there be something in my place?
Then I'll go downstairs, my mother, she'll talk to me.
Your words fly past me
look around, find nothing, see nothing.
I ask myself why?
Why no letter, no card, no nice word, why?
Then I wish it was tomorrow and my hope blossoms again.

Then I sit here and ask myself, am I sick?
Why is the day so infinitely long?
Then I think of the last words you I heard that I leave.
And think why is there nothing
Did I do something wrong?
Why am i not good enough
Why am i the way i am?
But in my deepest part I know the answer
or not?I don't like the phone anymore
When the doorbell rings, it's like I'm dying.
So excited, so nervous.
Do i know the number?
Please don't let it be one of my acquaintances.
Then I see her and the disappointment is great.
Again not for me.
Why?

Then I sit here and ask myself, am I sick?
I wonder why can you think of someone so often?
Why?
Why doesn't he answer, why don't I hear from him?
Just tell me why, why am I so excited?
When I hear him and think I see him.
Why are my thoughts going crazy?
Why is my mood fluctuating so much?
Why do I feel alone?
Why am I often sad now?
Why is he not there now?
But what will he mean?
Say?
Answers if I ask him again?
Just the thought of it tears my heart to pieces.

I sit here and wonder, am I sick?
I am seriously wondering what do I have?
I don't want to say it, believe it, don't believe it.Can it be, can it really be
The disease that affects everyone at some point?
The disease to which so many are exposed?
The disease called love?

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Well, I don't say much about that and you?