then we can eat ice cream now and then go our separate ways and forget each other." He said and began to eat because the ice cream was just coming.
"If you want that, but first I want to know something about you. What happened to your brother? How did Linno die?" The spoon that Ben had in his hand fell on the table and Ben stared at Ronja.
“How do you know about Linno?” He asked softly and the pain spread across his face.
“Ben, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you.” Ronja grabbed his hand, but he pulled it away."How do you know about him?"
"It's a long story. Ben, please, I need to know. Did you have something to do with your brother's death?" she looked at him and forced him not to look away. Again she grabbed his hand and this time he let her. “Please tell me.” Bathed her and squeezed his hand comfortingly.
He looked at the two hands, how different they were and yet, so he found they fit together. He began to talk quietly.
"It was about two years ago, when I was 17 years old and Linno was 16 years old. We argued like siblings always do, but this time it was particularly bad." He looked up and saw the feeling of compassion her eyes reflected, he also noticed that she was squeezing his hand, and so he said he should take his time.
"Can we go? I want to move," he asked.
“Sure, we can go to the park, to the lake.” Ronja suggested and was about to get money out of her pocket, but Ben pulled her up and put enough for both of them on the table."I invite you and now don't argue." He said and smiled slightly.
"Thanks." The two started walking hand in hand.
“What did you argue about so much?” Asked Ronja when they got to the park.
"About a girl," Ben replied softly, "He loved her, he said, but she didn't want anything from him. Unfortunately, something from me and she told Linno that. She told him that I liked her too, that I did He didn't want to believe her because we had a very good relationship and I knew how he felt about her, so he wanted to come to me to talk to me about it and his fears about the betrayal and to get his uncertainty out of the way. He came into my room, Susanne, she is the girl this is about, was there too and just told me that she loves me. "Ben took a breath, the pain that he had for so long had repressed all his feelings, gained the upper hand so that his voice fell."Ben? You don't have to tell any more if you don't want to." Said Ronja softly.
"Yes, you should know, let's sit down here." And with that he pulled her to the shore of the lake.
So the two sat there, each indulging in his thoughts, Ben tried to find the strength to keep talking and Ronja wondered how she could help him.
"When Linno walked into the room, I had just told her that I wouldn't love her and that nothing could come of us. She started to cry and curse me, then Linno came and Susan threw herself into his arms and screamed, that I only lied to them and took advantage of them.
Linno looked at me, and then he looked at the tripped Susan and he believed her, not me. "He threw a rock in the lake," He just doesn't believe me, he doesn't believe me that I never had anything with Susan.
The evening before we had talked about her, he had told me that he loved her and wanted to tell her that tomorrow, and the next day he saw me as a traitor."Ben's voice cracked and tears of grief and pain rolled down his cheeks.
Ronja put her arms around him and rocked him comfortably to and fro.
"How argued then, he said that I had betrayed him, had stolen his only love, had stolen everything important from him. He ran out, Susan and me he left behind, then you could only hear the screeching of tires, a scream and then no more."
"Ben." Ronja felt how he pulled her closer to him and sought her near.
"Susan and I stood in the room and looked and scared, then we both ran and saw him, he was lying on the street and there was blood everywhere. The doctor told us that he was instantly dead. I am to blame, I am to blame for that he's dead. "Ben said quietly and buried his face in Ronja's hair.
"No, you are not, nobody is to blame, that was an accident." She stroked his back soothingly and kept repeating that it was an accident.
After an hour, Ben had himself in a rage again, he let go of Ronja and looked at her, "Thank you."“Where lead?” She smiled at him.
"That you listened to me, that you were there, that you, you are."
"Ben, I really mean what I say, you are not to blame, Linno is solely responsible for it. It is he who did not believe you and you only told Susan what you really felt, that is important Blame it, why should it? That might sound mean, but you must not discard your life just because your brother is no longer alive. You have to live again and you have to have fun, laugh and allow feelings, then the pain that you have passed will also go away or it becomes part of you. You learn to live with it and learn other feelings that will hurt just as much. "
"How do you want to know that? How do you know how it is when someone dies that you love?"
"My parents both died in an accident, I lost them both at the same time, a year ago, I haven't cried for them to this day, I still haven't overcome the anger that I feel because they are just so alone just died. ""I didn't know that, I'm sorry."
"It's okay, Ben, do you promise me something?"
"What?" he asked and looked her in the eye, "What is the matter, what is it that worries you?"
"Please, always keep the joie de vivre, never let it come back so that you just don't want to feel anything anymore."
"If you're there, I can do it." He pulled her towards him.
"Even if I'm not there, please promise," she whispered softly.
“Where are you?” He asked.
"Away, promise me, please"
"I promise you, Ronja," he whispered and then kissed her.
"Thanks." She mumbled against his lips and then just let herself fall into the kiss.
"I love you, Ronja."

"Do you still want to come in?" Asked Ronja Ben when they stood in front of the door.
"Clear." He smiled at her and kissed her on the tip of her nose.
“How could you?” Linno stared at the two and you could see the pain on his face. Benn stared at Linno, "Linno? Is it really you?" He asked quietly and let go of Ronja."Ben, my dear brother. How are you?"
"Linno, how ... what ... why?"
“I've become an angel.” He explained, “And again you have the girl I love.” He added and suddenly had a died in hand. "I won't allow her to die. You are supposed to die, you cheated on me a second time and betrayed me." Linno rushed towards Ben and would have hit him if Ronja hadn't jumped in between.
“Linno. Don't!” The dead man hit her and got stuck in her stomach. She gasped and looked down at herself.
"Ronja." Ben was with her immediately and caught her when she fell.
"Benn," she smiled, "is Linno still there?"
"Yes, I'll call an ambulance, stay calm Ronja, it'll be fine." He wanted to jump up.
"Not Ben, please. The ambulance can't help me either. But you have to speak up, Linno, can you hear me?"
"Ronja, I didn't mean ... Why did you ...?"
"I can't let him die, you know that.Linno, he didn't have Susan, she lied to you because she was offended. Ben loves you Please forgive, you'll never find your place in the sun. "
"Ronja, I love you and he has, he has the heart of the girl I love again. He does it on purpose."
"Linno, I love Ben, that has nothing to do with you and Ben didn't even know that you knew me. He put all his feelings on hold because of you, he suffered. You have to forgive yourself, you have to Linno forgive me, please for my sake. "She smiled at the angel.
"Benn, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't want us to break up like that, I just didn't want to believe that you did this to me. I'm sorry, but it was easier to blame you living the anger as the pain that Susan didn't want me. "Linno looked at his brother, who was clutching Ronja's hand, tears in my eyes," I love you too, brother. "
"Linno, I must forgive you and Ronja too."Ben looked up and smiled slightly.
“Good luck to you Ben, I'll take care of you.” Linno was drawn into a white light and then disappeared.
“You knew, didn't you?” Ben asked quietly.
"That I was dying? Yes, I knew it."
"That's why I promise that I should always allow feelings, even when you're not there."
"I'm always with you Ben, I love you. I will always watch over you and be in your heart." She smiled weakly at him.
"Ronja," his tears mingled with hers.
"I would have liked to have had a little more time with you, Ben, but I'm glad that everything is cleared up between you and Linno."
“Is there anything else I can do for you?” Ben asked quietly, wiping his eyes to make them better.
"Yes, please take care of Helle. Take good care of him."
"I promise you I will."
"Thanks."
"I will always love you and I will continue to live. Just because of you, you are my angel." Ben whispered and kissed her.Ronja's eyes closed and the last thing she felt were Ben's lips closing hers. And with this feeling, she began to float, higher and higher, until she had her own wings and watched over the person she loved most.

so that's it, I hope it wasn't too bad and you enjoyed it :-) HEL