Hello everyone,
Today I'll give you a little insight into what's going on in my head when I can't sleep all night again. (That was the night shift "howling" all week) Now it's about Usagi's thoughts, and Mamoru's death. Do not ask me how I "sniff" something like that. True, a mental flash because I don't want to hold up a "grin"
But now I've talked about enough nonsense, pull out your handkerchiefs and have fun reading.

Beyond death

I wish I could hate you ... Hate so much that the pain goes away that tears my heart apart .... Hate so much that I don't see your picture all the time ... But I just can't hate you. ..
Why did you want to go so badly? ... Even though I begged you not to? ... You promised to call me and write to me every day ... But even then I couldn't believe you ... . Just why? ... Maybe because you said these words to me before ... Said and still didn't keep them ... Back then you wanted to make your dreams come true ... You said you wanted to make a beautiful future possible for us ... At that time I let you go, even though I couldn't bear thoughts of being separated from you ... But I did, because I didn't want to stand in the way of your dreams ... Even then you did not come back to me .... But it's not your fault, I know that ...You got one more chance to realize your dreams .... And this time you didn't want to let them be stolen from you .... I begged you to stay with me ... Don't let me suffer these fears again. ... But you stuck to your decision, told me it would only be for a few months ... At the airport you kissed me one last time, assuring me how much you loved me ... But at the same time as you did yourself Turned around to go to your plane, I know that you wouldn't come back to me this time either ... Why? ... Why didn't I hold you? ... Prevent you from getting into this cursed machine? ...
I will never again feel your closeness ... Never again feel your love and security .... Because you will not come back to me ... I will never forget the day when the police were at our door .... Me said that your plane had crashed ... Because that day, I died too ... I would love to follow you again ... Lying in your arms again ... But I know that this is not what you would wish ...And I can't do it either ... Because she needs me ... She ... Your daughter, whom you never found out about ... Only because of her do I stay in this world ... I endure grief and the Pain ... knowing that it will never go away ...

Because I will never be able to stop loving you.

So that's true then.
Clerks are welcome, your black lady