Hello. I write this Fic to process personal experiences with this topic. I hope I can do this well. Oh yes, the mother of the Tendo sisters is still alive in my fic.

7.30 a.m. Nabiki gets out of bed tired. She hardly slept. Like every night in the last few weeks. She only tosses and turns and does not come to rest. But how could she? Too many thoughts go through her head and rob her of sleep. She drags herself to her desk and takes out her schedule. At the sight of the hours her listlessness is reflected in her face. After getting ready and putting on her school uniform, she slowly trudges down the stairs for breakfast. In the living room the others are already sitting around the table and eating. Nabiki stops in front of the door and hesitates. She doesn't feel the slightest desire to sit down with the others. She is just too bad for that.But then she goes to the others. Before that, however, she puts on a mock smile in order to simulate a cheerfulness that no longer exists in her for a long time. “Tomorrow together.” “Good morning, Nabiki.” She sits down on her seat next to Kasumi and pours herself coffee. Then she lights a cigarette. "Does that have to be, Nabiki? You know that I don't want you to smoke." "Leave it to his mother. That's my business" Since she is not really hungry, she only takes a little rice. While she tends to force her in too, she discreetly observes the others. None of them have a clue what it looks like inside her. This pain, caused by your worries and problems, is slowly eating away at your soul. Even though she lives in the same house with so many, she can't talk to anyone about it. Not with her sisters and parents, and neither would her girlfriends understand her. This feeling of loneliness causes her the greatest pain.As Nabiki thinks about her situation, she feels the emotions rise in her. Before she loses her composure in front of the others, she gets up quickly and says goodbye to them. Once outside, she withdraws to a corner where no one can watch her. The tears begin to run down her cheeks inexorably. She hates this constant crying, but there is nothing she can do about it. Even at night, when everyone has long been asleep, she sits in her room and cries. After she has recovered somewhat, she makes her way to school. After a 15 minute walk, she stands in front of the entrance gate of her school. Groups of students who are exuberant and happy run past her. At this sight, her stomach tightens. She hasn't been happy and exuberant for a long time. On the contrary. She is empty inside. Even if she tries, she can no longer feel joy.She is far too bad for that. 'Shall I go blue again? That would be 3 times this week. Oh what the heck, even if I go, I don't work with you. 'With a quick step she is leaving school. Although she was otherwise a good student, she has only been to school irregularly in the last few weeks. So far, no one from the school has informed their parents about it either. But she wouldn't care either.

In the classroom. Nabiki's best friends are standing in a corner of the room talking. "Tell me, where is Nabiki? She should have been here a long time ago." "Is she turning blue again? She won't be coming any more soon." "Well, she told us that she was just a little bit at the moment is lazy. "" And you believe her, Nami? "" Why not, Mai? "" I have the feeling that she has something. Even when she comes to school, she just sits in her seat, lost in thought and does not participate in the class."" I also find that something is wrong with her. She withdraws more and more. And she has also given up her sales campaigns with the pictures of Ranma and Akane. And that really worries me because it doesn't suit her. "" Why do you worry, Ai? Maybe Ranma was just talking to her in conscience. "" Stop it, Nami. Didn't you notice any changes in her at all? After all, she's not doing anything with us either. "" Maybe she is lovesick. "" Nonsense. Nabiki would never be unhappy because of a guy. "

At Nabiki. Nabiki has retired to her favorite place. On the roof of an old, no longer used skyscraper. She lies with her back on the floor and stares at the sky. Her mind is racing with thoughts. 'I'm at the end. I can not anymore. I'm only 17 and already struggling to drag myself from day to day. How long should it go on like this? 'These are the thoughts that hurt her so much.That rob you of sleep night after night and simply won't let you rest. These thoughts are not new to her, but for some time she has not had the strength to fight them. Her facade, which she has built up so that no one can figure out how she is really doing, is getting weaker from day to day. She would like to talk to someone, but with whom. Almost every day there is only a fight with her family. They wouldn't listen to her and think she just wants to draw attention to herself. And her friends? Actually, she could always talk about anything with the three of them. But their fear is too great that they might turn away from her. She has to cry again. She shouldn't have any more tears as often as she cries. 'What if I die? My life is pointless anyway. Someday I'll die anyway. Why not now? Nobody would miss me anyway. My family would be happy when I was gone. My friends might miss me, but somehow they would be able to come to terms with it for sure.'Slowly Nabiki gets up and goes to the edge of the roof. She looks down with her tearful face. 'Just one little jump and all of my worries and problems are gone. 'She feels a struggle breaking out inside her. On the one hand their will to live, on the other their longing for death. She is torn from her thoughts by the ringing of her cell phone. "When are you coming home at last? Do you actually know what time it is? I'm waiting to eat." "Sorry mother. I talked to mine and forgot the time. I'll be right there." She really forgot the time . School ended an hour ago. Immediately she makes her way home.

Nabiki is lying on her bed. Because she cannot forget thoughts from this afternoon. To die. Have peace forever. After a while she gets up and goes downstairs to the bathroom with an emotionless expression. She takes one of her father's razor blades and sits on the edge of the bathtub.Since it is already after midnight and everyone is asleep, no one will disturb them in their plans. Nabiki looks thoughtfully at her right wrist. The tears begin to flow again. She didn't want to die with a tearful face. Then she applies the blade. Final doubts arise in her.

That was the first chapter. Does she do it, or does she change her mind. What do you all mean? I would be happy about many commis. Suggestions and criticism (with suggestions for improvement) would not be bad either.