The darkness threatens to engulf me, it envelops me in complete darkness. I'm freezing, I'm cold, and nobody is there to warm me. I long for your warmth, but you are not there, no one is there. Nobody who pulls me out of the darkness and warms me, nobody who gives me security. Everyone thinks I'm strong and I have no problems and I can always help myself, but that's not true, I'm not as strong as you all think. I am weak and can not always solve my problems as I want, I always suppress them and make it appear as if I have none at all and you always believe me. Nobody sees how I suffer, nobody sees how desperate I am. Nobody notices it. None. I cry a lot, very often. I feel lonely, left alone. Why is there nobody who really knows me? ´I always ask myself this question when I feel like I do now, why does nobody see my inner suffering? Why does nobody know me like they always think they know me?Tears run down my face over and over again. Inexorably and over and over again, I cry. And where are you when I feel so bad, where are you when I need your warmth, when I disappear into the darkness and can't do it on my own? WHERE ARE YOU!! I NEED YOU!! The darkness has almost completely swallowed me up, the darkness swallows me into its darkness. I am completely enveloped in darkness, the last bit of light in me threatens to disappear, but then you come. You pull me out of the darkness again. Take me in my arms, give me some of the warmth so that I don't freeze anymore. I feel the warmth rise in me. The moment you pulled me out of this deep darkness was the happiest moment for me, because for the first time I felt happy again, not alone and secure. Please don't ever let go of me. I wanna be in your arms forever And keep this security that you give me and I know that I love you only you.Because you are my light, my warmth, my sunshine. You are my life.