carefully. She looked at him intently.
"Yes."
Kagome could hardly believe that the devil had chosen such a ... yes, innocent-looking body. Was it all for confusion? Or had Satan had no influence on it?
"I want answers, Inuyasha. I want to hear everything about you and me."
Now at last he turned his head to her.
"We are here for no other reason, Kagome-sama."
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"How could it be that I could hear your voice in my head?"
Her brown eyes rested on the young man next to her. He, in turn, had turned his head back to the distance and was staring into space.
"Because we're both on one side of the coin."
It was nothing more than a breath, just a whisper that was carried away by the wind before it became real.
"What do you mean? One side of the coin each?"
Kagome cocked his head and blinked at the young man next to him. Why in God's name did he speak so strangely, so confusedly?Couldn't he just state the reason in a nutshell?
"Ever heard of the principle of Yin and Yang, dear Kagome-sama? Light and darkness, life and death, all belong together. And so does God and Satan. And we both, Kagome-sama, embody God and the devil. We ... we belong together. Without each other we cannot exist. If you die or I finally find death, and a saint or a devil is not immediately born again, then the world is unbalanced introduce yourself, holy Kagome-sama. If you take something from one side, tilt the scales. If you also take something from the other side, it will regain its equilibrium.
The brighter the day, Kagome-sama, the darker the night. Either someone will be born to take your place when you die, or I will depart with you. What would become of the world in which only light rules? You shouldn't die because that belongs to the devil. Conversely, no more children would be born under Satan's rule. God and the devil must rule over this earth together, otherwise it will perish. I hope you understood me? "
Kagome had turned his gaze up through the leaves at the dark, rainy night sky. "That doesn't explain my question."
She heard Inuyasha make an indefinable sound that was part of joy.
"You can do the same to me. But I won't be frightened, Kagome-sama. You should have seen your face.
Try it. Talk to me In your mind. Try it, it's not difficult. "
He nodded encouragingly to her. "Think of my face and what you want to tell me."
The miko closed her eyes and called Inuyasha's face out of her mind. She thought a few words hesitantly:
"Ha ... hello? Do you hear me? Oh God, I hope I'm not embarrassing myself!"
"I hear you, don't worry. You have to try to separate your own thoughts from what you want to tell me.Try again. "
"I only think about what I want to tell him, I only think about what I want to tell him ... do you hear me?"
"Bad. I mean, I hear you well. But also what you didn't want to say ... maybe you just need practice. Try it again and again, but only with me. It works with others too, but they would only be frightened . I'm ready for it. Do you hear? Practice this, but only with me. Promise me that. "
"You, a devil? Who knows if you're not sniffing around in my mind!"
"If I wanted that, I could have done it anytime without you noticing." His voice tore her from her thoughts. His golden eyes rested on her.
"Really?"
"Yes. You only noticed me when I spoke to you. I could have ..." sniffed around "in your head, as you call it, without your knowing anything about it."
"Can I do that too?"
"That's up to you, Kagome-sama. I hide my thoughts well ... but maybe you will be able to see behind this wall. Just try someone without talking to them. First with children, then with adults. "
Kagome nodded and Inuyasha turned her head back to the distance.
"Do you like to look into the distance?"
Inuyasha was silent. Long, very long. The rain pelted softly on the soft earth, softening it. The stars were hidden and the moon was not given a chance to bathe the village in its weak light. Only the lightning made the world light up and a thunder shook life.
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"I would like to go to the sea," he said quietly at some point.
"Why don't you?"
Inuyasha looked at Kagome.
"I can't," was his simple answer.
Kagome sighed. Men seemed really complicated ...
"Would you come with me?"
Now Kagome understood nothing at all. Why should she come with you?
"Why don't you go alone?"
Inuyasha looked forward again.That was again one of the questions he was expecting. Kagome-sama was so ... naive, ignorant. But ... at least she could. Ask. He had had to experience all of this alone. He still remembered what that pain felt like. A saint shouldn't feel this.
"That ... that doesn't work. You know ... you and I are connected. One of us can't just go to the other end of the world. It ... it would hurt both of us. You know, once I went away, away from that." Angel at the time, and it hurt. It hurt a lot. I don't know how my counterpart was feeling, but I heard that she passed away soon after I left. I ... I couldn't find out why. And I hope that it wasn't because of the distance between us. I didn't know this woman, and have only ever seen her from a distance. And ... now I want to do better to save us both this pain. "
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By now Kagome had hugged her knees and did the same to stare into the distance. She didn't know what to say or what to do. Only now did she realize how ignorant she had been of her fate. She was nothing more than a substitute for her predecessor and, if she died, someone else would come to succeed her. Inuyasha was so old, so old ... she would never get that old. 666 years ... that was a remarkable number that she could not get at at the tender age of fifteen. But, rightly, did she even want to?
"Are you immortal, Inuyasha?"
"The devil alone knows that. I am too old to be human, but too young to be considered a servant of hell. When I die, I will not be a person - nor a demon. I will not be anything like me it always has been. Someone who cannot die, no matter what happens to him ... he is neither God nor Satan. And neither is he a demon.
You, Kagome-sama, will be an angel when you die.You will go to God in Paradise. "
"Tell me how old was my predecessor? And how old was yours?"
"Your predecessor? I don't remember exactly, but it certainly wasn't. Maybe something between a hundred and two hundred years.
My ancestor? I do not know that. Maybe older than me, but maybe younger than me. Who knows ... I wasn't born until his death, after all. And I can't ask anyone ... at most Satan, but I'd better not do that. "
Kagome looked at him in amazement. With the devil ...?
"Are you talking to the devil?"
Inuyasha laughed. Not loud, more inclined to be quiet, but he laughed. "Indirectly. He tells me what to do. Doesn't God do that to you too? Certainly, you can't hear words, I can't hear them either. But don't you sometimes have the impulse to do something specific? That's God." Will."
Kagome looked at him. He knew a lot. So much ... who had taught him all of this? He said he hadn't known her predecessor. And of course not his either. Had the knowledge of heaven fallen into his arms? She tried to visualize it and giggled a little.
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The wind blew softly, the rain still fell cold from the sky. Some leaves reluctantly peeled off their branches to be carried away by the wind. The thick clouds hardly gave a chance to see the stars or the moon, maybe it was morning.
Kagome sat under that tree, next to her her counterpart, the one who chased poor believers in their nightmares. And she herself, whose appearance always meant something good.
He was a devil. Inuyasha.
She was an angel. Kagome.
You shouldn't be connected. You should hate yourself.
And yet they were interdependent. Without one it was impossible for the other to exist.
It was ... so paradoxical. And yet so true, so right. The law of yin and yang.Without one, the other could not exist. How would you know what was good if you didn't know what was bad? How would you know what love was if you didn't know what hate was?
"Kagome-sama ... you should go now. It's already after midnight, I have to go. And you too should now indulge in the sweet embrace of sleep. We will surely see each other again. Goodbye until next time, holy Kagome." -sama. "
Then he got up and moved away into the rain until the darkness had swallowed him. Kagome watched him go until she went home too.
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The cold, rainy night was followed by a bright, brilliant morning. The birds chirped and the air was still a little damp.
Kagome was still in her bed, thinking about the last night. It seemed so unreal to her now, so unreal. Like it was just a dream. But she knew it wasn't. Inuyasha was real. And he was here, here in this place.
"Honey? Someone here wants something from you," her mother called. Kagome closed her eyes briefly, then stood up and smiled.
The visitor was the same as last time - only that he now looked completely shocked and offended. "By God, what happened? What happened that you are in such a condition?" The man looked up and began to stammer. "Me ... my daughter ...! There ... the child ... w ... gone ...!" Kagome blinked. "What exactly do you mean by" gone "?"
"Gone! Not there! Disappeared! Found a piece of paper ... but ... I can't read." He held out a small piece of paper with trembling fingers. Kagome just picked it up automatically.
Kagome-sama!
I knew you would get it. There aren't that many people here who can read. I took her with me. The woman and her unborn child. They are supposed to belong to Satan, both of them.
The woman is scared. I did not take her to separate her from you.I was with her. It was her wish. She was afraid of you, Kagome-sama. She was afraid that you would