~ Tanjo ~

What should I start with? Maybe how I was born as a Kurayami child. Yes, that's where I should start. Oh sorry, I completely forgot to introduce myself. My name is Kurasawa, Takahashi Kurasawa. It was the year of the dragon, the Edo Age was drawing to a close, and I was just 24 years old. Despite my young age, I longed to die, I prayed constantly to be delivered from the pain of life. This request was for everyone. The yujo in my arms. The host who provided me with enough sake every day. She finally heard a chitenshi. After making my way to my "palace" at dawn, like every night, I met her for the first time. My way home took me a long way along the coast. There she was waiting for me. To this day, I am amazed that I did not notice it immediately. Her long black hair lay perfectly still, even though a strong wind was blowing. Her blue eyes that stared out at more, as if they were observing something in the distance. But at the time I was no longer interested. I thought she was an ordinary yujo. Many of them lurked there to take out men like me. When she spoke to me, it was as if the dead were speaking to me. My prayers seemed to be answered, but that it would happen that way ... I can barely remember her words, I was probably too drunk or had she not spoken to me at all?But who else should she have spoken to? Maybe I just wanted her to mean me. I wanted a meaning for my existence and maybe I knew deep down that she could give it to me. And she gave it to me ... blood. It bit me and flew high in the air with me. I had never felt so free before. Worry free. Free from pain, except that I felt from their bloody kiss. But this pain was more of a benefit for me than an agony. With this pleasant pain I could have died in peace, but it would not let me. I felt the blood flow from me. It flowed into eternity. When I had almost entered eternity, I was torn away from its gate. She dropped me into the sea. When I woke up again I was lying on the beach wet, covered with algae. With the last of my strength I dragged myself to my house and into my bed. I don't know how long I was there. Days? Weeks? Years? I saw confusing things. Did I dream of the past? Did I have visions of the future? There seemed to be no end to them. Until she came to me on a full moon night. Not a single word escaped her lips, but it seemed to me that she had told me the entire history of humanity. Those blue eyes to get lost in, I just followed them. I only saw her and I didn't want to see anything else either. She was so beautiful and probably still will be ... On that full moon night she led me to a shrine that was next to my house.In this shrine she made me a Chitenshi for good. After she pressed her bloody kiss on me for the second time and thus removed the last drop of life, she asked me in an angelic voice: "You could stay forever young and beautiful. You could stay by my side forever. Do you want to come with me ? "Who would have refused? That's what I wanted See this magic of God for eternity. Who could have resisted this black angel? Surely you feel drawn to evil too? Sin seduces everyone. She made me taste her blood. Only this one time. It wasn't much, at most a few drops, but for me it was like the whole sea. “Do you still wish for death, or have you tasted enough of it?” “Enough,” I breathed with my last breath, with which I was absorbed and united in myself all night. And with that last breath I suffered a hell of a pain that would not end. She sat down next to my twitching body. "Your body is dying now, don't pay any attention to it. We all feel the same way." I seemed to load the sins of all humanity upon myself and to live through hell a thousand times. These pains have not stopped to this day, but you get used to them after a very short time. You become part of one. "And now look around, a Chitenshi's eyes see differently."I did what she told me. My gaze first and foremost at a statue and stayed there. She seemed to be crying. To this day I wonder why? She felt so much pain for humanity, which was becoming more and more in lost their sins? The whole world seemed to be crying. Or was it me? I was a newborn Chitenshi and wept over the beauty of the night. I wept even though not a single tear left my eyes.