Sesshomaru wasn't there, Jaken was really cheeky and angry with her again, although the toad demon had actually taken the little girl very much into his heart but could never admit it!Now Jaken came running and fell on his knees in front of his master, "Oh Sesshomarusama Master, nice that you are back. Master, I ask for your forgiveness, but this human woman was gone so quickly I couldn't catch up with her. Please forgive oh Master! "Begged the toad Rin threw him a devastated look at which it was he who hadn't even made an effort to look for Kagome. Sesshomaru, however, walked past you and back into the cave where he put Kagome back on her sleeping place. He covered her with a blanket because she was very cool and also trembled slightly, then he left the cave again. He went to Rin and Jaken who were arguing again. "Jaken" "Yes master?" "I'm going away again and this time she shouldn't run away from you again, did you understand me?" "But master ....." Sesshomaru gave him a withering look and the toad fell immediately pleading on his knees "Yes, master, I will make sure that she stays lying down" with a last warning look at Jaken, he turned to who had seen the whole thing amused "Rin make sure she stays there too" "Hai Sesshomaru- sama, I'll take care of you "She smiled happily at her master before she turned and ran back into the cave to take care of Kagome's wounds.
I slowly came to, I could quickly see where I was. I was back in the cave // ​​but how did he get here again ..... oh dread Sesshomaru ... what was I thinking // I was about to get up then I felt this stabbing pain again in my chest, my heart literally screamed and I felt it contract and burst. No, my vision blurred not because I was about to faint again, but rather because my eyes were filled with tears. // I've lost everything Inuyasha, my great love .... the way home and with it my beloved family .... lost everything. Why did I still have to live // ​​My thoughts drifted more and more into the darkness while my tears kept running down my cheeks. I couldn't ... I didn't mean to stop her! I did not perceive my surroundings anymore so I did not notice someone approaching me until I felt a hand on my shoulder it was small so it could only be that of a child. When I raised my gaze I sat in the happy face of Rin, she had put on a sugar-sweet smile but the despair reflected in her eyes again.
".... Rin .... what are you doing here?" I asked her softly so that I could imagine that she was having a hard time understanding me. Her smile only got wider.
"Kagome-sama as I see you have finally woken up. But you mustn't cry, everything will be fine again!" She was still smiling and now put her second arm on my shoulder and hugged me timidly.My eyes widened when I felt how she held me in her embrace and encouraged me to say that everything would be fine again // This little girl is so full of courage ... // A small smile graced my lips I don't know how she did it made but the little one managed to give me some hope again and to drive the darkness away from my soul. But her next words literally froze me.
"If you want Kagome-sama then you can stay with us and travel with us, Master Sesshomaru-sama won't mind"
How naive the little one was, but her words actually gave me the idea to ask him at some point if I should see him again! The little Rin released her hug from me again and I saw at the tip of her nose that it was probably a bit uncomfortable for her that I didn't say anything. But her little face was still adorned with a sweet smile!
"You know ... well ... I would ..." She hesitated shortly before continuing. I gave her an encouraging smile which seemed to make her speak up again to finish her sentence. "Well I would ... well, I would be happy if you would stay with us" She screamed the last words almost so that I had to flinch. But that subsided very quickly because your words gave me so much courage so much hope that maybe everything would be fine again!
"Well, maybe I'll really stay with you," I said politely towards her. My tears stopped running while she was hugging her. // the little one is really strange and that when she is always on the move with this block of ice ... let's see maybe I will really stay if the block of ice has nothing to do with it //
Several weeks passed in which the wounds of the young Miko were able to heal but not only her physical wounds were healed by the little Rin no also her emotional ones were slowly becoming less and less! The two were now connected by a close bond of friendship that could no longer be torn apart! Jaken well he is only excited now that he had two of the kind around him, as he always said so nicely, and the two young women insisted on making life into a cave again and again. Sesshomaru stayed away from the camp all weeks. Kagome no longer thought about what if he came back now and whether she should then go or stay. She just didn't know and therefore decided to worry about it when he was back. It was a warm summer day and Kagome and Rin were fooling around once again - their laughter could be heard through the whole forest. Jaken sat pouting at a tree that the two of them had once again annoyed him furiously. When he finally came back. Sesshomaru .....
"Sesshomaru-sama you are there again!"Rin shouted the words because she was the first who had noticed him. With a smile she ran up to him and around him he didn't care much. He kept his gaze straight ahead. How he stood there with the With the sun on his back, he looked simply divine. This graceful stature, this flawlessly good-looking face from which gorgeous eyes made of liquid gold could be seen and finally his silver-white hair that played with the wind. // This man was divine ... .. Wait a minute, what do I think since he's an arrogant recurring .... tzz // I slowly got up and walked towards him "Hello Sesshomaru, nice that you're back! "I passed him with a smile. I did not expect to receive an answer from him. That I did not address him respectfully with Sama as it should be was unintentional but not necessary in my eyes ... Oh how I am always wrong !!!!
"Woman .... you understood how to address me as sama" came his ice-cold voice behind me. I stopped dead in my feet my whole body was motionless // in this cold you even freeze to hell //
"Hai Sesshomaru- SAMA" the Sama I emphasized very probably even slightly belligerent because I only got a bad look from him. I turned around again and went my way into the forest because I wanted to freshen up briefly to the river.
This woman doesn't seem to have any respect for me, what does she think who I am ?? I am Lord Sesshomaru ruler of the western lands and who was she, please ... a simple human woman ... yes I had to admit she was a miko and she was also a very strong miko but I would never let her know. She doesn't look bad with her hip-length black and blue hair, her flawless, smooth peach-colored skin, her full red lips and then her fawn-brown eyes that always looked at you as piercingly as if she were looking into your soul ..... and this one Geru ..... wait a minute what am I thinking here she is just a simple stupid human woman. Inwardly I slapped myself because I wasted such thoughts on her but outwardly I didn't let it show. Even so, she was a little different from other people, the Lord had to admit that after all. // I'll teach her the necessary manners //
What does this arrogant, conceited and haughty guy actually think of me who is he that he thinks I address him as Sama just because he is a lord .... For me he is nothing more than a chunk of ice without feelings and without respect. Slowly I approached the river and when I got there I had to find out that I was often here with Inuyasha and the others ... // .... Inuyasha ..... How he and the others are doing // At a leisurely pace I went down to the river bank and looked at my reflection on the surface of the water ... // Actually, I don't care how you are, as it seems, he hasn't even looked for me he would have found me a long time ago .... I'm not that far from the village .... But apparently he doesn't want to find me at all ..... Arrrhhhhh ... // It was too bad to leave the country.The more I thought about it the more anger rose in me and then I got the picture of Inuyasha and Kikyou called back to my eyes ...
// Oh I don't care if he gets happy with his rotting corpse .... If he thinks it makes him happy please I don't care // But deep in my heart I knew that I didn't care that he was Inuyasha didn't bother to find her that he chose Kikyou back then and not her .... Yes, inside she had to admit that it hurt a lot. After pondering around for a long time and sinking into self-pity, the words came to my mind, and on our first day Rin said to me again, "I shouldn't be sad and if I wanted to, I could stay ... and that Sesshomaru wouldn't mind ..." ...> Whoever thinks I don't think so !! But now that they had brought the little girl's words back to mind, the question became inevitable // stay ... or go ... I have to choose //
I don't know how much time had passed and I was still sitting on the river bank and thinking about this decision, but when I looked up I noticed that it was already dark. With one last thought of my decision and one last look into what was reflected in the water, I got up and with determined heart went back to our camp that I made up my mind.