I do not know what happened,
I only remember the blue light
I was lying on the ground in the snow.
I lost consciousness. I can't remember why.
That was three months ago. Since then I've been in the hospital.
I am sick, say the doctors
but don't know exactly what I have myself.
My body functions have all shut down
I have been told that I have heart failure.
But at my age it's very unusual
nobody understands why this is happening to me.
Doctors pretend they're in control
but I realize that you don't have it.
My body is preparing to die.
My appetite is decreasing, I am not so thirsty anymore,
sleep a lot and no longer really show interest in social contacts.
I prefer to look out the window at the sky
the clouds that fly by look so harmless
they don't stress about getting anywhere and can't scold you and be on the verge of despair.
Not like my family or friends.
Of course it's sad when someone dies
but do you really have to harass them every day and ask them not to die?
I said that I didn't show much interest in social contacts, right?
I mean I love these people
my friends, really, but that's the way it is.
My name is Ichigo Jamabuki and I'm 20 years old, I've finished my life and I'm ready to go.
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So that's the prologue.
I know it's not that long. But I hope you like it anyway.
Don't ask me how I got the idea to write something like that ... I don't know myself ^^
So I would be happy if you tell me how you like it ^^
best regards
Rini-chan