Thoughts about the future
I am a strange person.
I know that, I accept that.
There are many things in which I notice my bizarre nature. Quite everyday things.
My way of thinking, how I weigh up how I should behave in situations.
I am a realistic person. Actually. I keep lists of pros and cons for actions, think about the consequences of my behavior, and act accordingly.
Many call me a pessimist, but honestly, what can I do to prevent the world from having a better reality?
Can I help that it is difficult to get a job, that the chance of finding a partner for life is so slim?
It upsets me that so many say "It'll be fine, it'll fit, don't be so pessimistic."
Seriously, how many couples stay together forever? How many young people cannot find a job after graduating?
I am genuinely sorry to see the reality.
Which leads me to the real topic.
I said yes, I'm actually a realistic person.
But the fact is, I can imagine aliens or robots taking over the world. That we'll all die next year and so on.
What I can't imagine, however, is having my own apartment after school or university, a life partner, children and a steady job.
I can't imagine loving someone like that to spend my life with them, can't believe coming home in the evening, telling my little family about the day, cooking together.
On the other hand, I don't want to end up alone. If I imagine I can't tell ANYONE about my day, sitting lonely in silence, I feel sick.
I ask myself, will that change? Am i strange Or am I simply an ignorant child?
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I can't say anything about this either,
It is like it is,
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