and I also think I saw a tear in her eyes. Your eyes? I didn't see anything in it. I couldn't read anything in them. For the first time in ages it was completely closed to me.
"I love you." she breathed and gave herself to me. I knew that it was the last time, because by now it was clear to me that I would relive our last hours. The last hours in the gallery bathroom when she said goodbye and I hadn't noticed. I just loved her without noticing what was going on inside her. I should have noticed and stopped her, but it was too late. Everything was too late.

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I opened my eyes. I had a dream. Dreamed of the past and a possible future that will never happen. I was still lying on the floor of the alley. It was cold. The cold got to my bones, but I ignored it. I could only think of her. Our last hours. She had said goodbye. She already knew at that moment that she would go. She knew she was going to leave me. I should have noticed. Their eyes had given them away, but I was blind. I should just stay here. Maybe a miracle would happen and someone would find me and bring me to her.Back in her arms. Back to her laughter. Back to their love.
Maybe a miracle would happen.

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I heard the first birds chirping. The night was ending, but the cold was still there. She would never go away again. I closed my eyes. Immediately she appeared before me. Her shining eyes looked at me knowing and in love, just as I wanted it to be forever. But it was over. She wouldn't come back. She's gone. Gone to start a new life without me and I had to learn to live with it. I had to learn to live without my life. I opened my eyes again and looked at the night sky, which was slowly getting lighter. I should just stay here. Maybe a miracle would happen and someone would find me and bring me to her. Back in her arms. Back to her laughter. Back to their love.
Back to my life
Maybe a miracle would happen.