Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone, 'cause I can't fight it any more

Images. These pictures are lying around everywhere. I don't want to look at them any longer. I would like to burn them all. But then I'm missing something. Then parts of my life are missing. Parts that I don't want to miss. Not again. We haven't seen each other in a long time. It's been a long time since you left us. I would like to call you, but I don't dare. As you once said, I am too cowardly.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me, it happens all the time

And every time I wonder if you think of me too. The time before you disappeared. And the time before your spell I can't believe you erased those memories. I can't believe you're still on my mind after all of this. It is absurd. You are banished, become a completely different person. And yet I miss you

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now

One look at the clock tells me it's past midnight. I should sleep, but I can't. I feel alone, unloved, like the last shit. You hurt me so much, but I would always call you, follow you, even if you killed me. I would be with you You would be with me. And that is the most important. I can't live without you It is too hard.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop lookin 'at the door
Wishing you'd come sweepin 'in the way you did before

I put down my empty glass of whiskey aggressively and order a new one right away. I have to forget about it, even if it's hard. She wouldn't understand my actions, couldn't understand why I'm doing all of this. To them, I'm just a cold murderer who's gone mad because he wants to avenge his family. I look to the door for what feels like a thousandth time, but I still hope that she will walk through here at some point. Takes me with you and I follow her without hesitation. But that will never happen. I am no longer in their village. in way too far away.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me, it happens all the time

And now I wonder if you still think about me I can't understand it, but I only think about you all the time. To you and your pink hair. To you and your beautiful green eyes. To you and your determination. You didn't want to be inferior to us in any way. You wanted to stop me, I called you a coward. And I'm sorry.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now

I stumble back into my hiding place, there were probably two or three glasses too many. My hand is supported on one of the cold walls. Would you support me if you were here Would you have stopped me from drinking if you were here?What am I thinking? You wouldn't have supported me. You would have dropped me like I did then. I pick up the nearest pay phone, insert a few coins, dial your number, but don't wait until you pick up the phone. I hang up immediately. Yeah, I'm cowardly, drunk without you

Whoa-oh-whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin 'at all

I sit depressed on my bed, cuddle with my upholstery and hold our team photo in my hand. I loved being on a team with you. You built me ​​up, protected me and still hurt me. But I'd rather be hurt than numb. I'd rather have a slit throat than no feelings for you. Me without feelings for you, that would be like Christmas without a Christmas tree. Easter without the Easter bunny. Valentine's Day without happy couples.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now
I just need you now

I drop my pillow, get up and get dressed. I don't look at what I'm wearing. Probably my training stuff. I close my shoes while walking. I can do that. I don't know where I'm going, I don't know for how long. I just want to see you I need you so bad It is no longer possible without you. I stop in a clearing, feel a foreign chakra and hide on a branch. I finally found you. But what are you doing here?

Oh baby I need you now

I feel it. I feel her chakra, her warmth, even from the tree on which she is sitting and looking at me. My eyes meet hers, her cheeks turn red, my heart beats. I finally see her again. After such a long time. She is just as pretty as before, but what is she thinking? She looks at me like I'm a monster. I wouldn't look at myself any other way. She jumps off the branch, stops in front of me and just looks at me. I can't help it, I pull her into a hug and suppress the few tears that fill my eyes. I finally have her in my arms again.

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So far, I finally dared to do something new.
I hope it didn't turn out to be such a major disaster. : S.
If you do, please let me know in a picking office.

♥ Babsi