I sat by the window and stared out. It was shortly after Kira's transfer, at Christmas. "Snow ..." I mumbled and it triggered something in me. Was that loneliness that I felt? But why? I remembered my first Christmas Eve at Wammy's. Beautiful memories…

I was only 6 years old and had only been in the orphanage for a few months, so I hadn't got used to the whole situation. I found it difficult to deal with the death of my parents and the children here didn't make it any easier. They all looked so happy ... As if they didn't suffer from being alone, or is that their way of filling the void in their hearts? I just didn't get it. The only one who seemed to be feeling exactly the same as me was a blond boy who everyone called Mello and was just a year older than me. He didn't seal himself off like that, but whenever I saw him alone, he looked so sad. Especially today he found it hard to hide it. Maybe because it was Christmas tomorrow? I had no idea. I went to the library, which was the only place where I was always quiet, and read a few books. But my thoughts kept wandering back to Mello. I felt sorry for him, very much. // He must have been through a lot ... // I thought to myself as I opened a book about drugs. Drugs had taken my mother away, but at some point I had to deal with that anyway. "What are you reading there?" Someone asked me. It was Linda, a brown-haired girl, just as old as Mello and quite bright. She was friendly and helpful to everyone and seemed to have lived here for a while. I popped the book closed so she could read the title. "Mello had that in her hand lately. You would certainly get along well if you talked to him." I didn't really care, I didn't give up on other people's opinions. I got up and put the book back on the shelf. "What's going on?" She asked me, sounding kind of worried. "Nothing," I muttered. I just wanted some peace and quiet and walked out of the room. Something ... I had something to do. I nervously played with my hair and went to my room, sat on the sill of my window, looking outside. "Snow ..." I smiled, leaned my forehead against the window and nodded a little later.

“Hey, kid, I asked you something.” I jumped up and looked into the blond's eyes and noticed that I had been lying on the floor. I should have woken up from that! And I was cold too. “Are you coming to dinner or not?” I just nodded silently. His tone was comfortably bossy. When he left the room, I just followed him. There was something about him, something that calmed me down. We sat together later, too, but kept silent. It wasn't uncomfortable though, it gave you calm amid the excitement. Everyone was looking forward to their presents and tomorrow. Christmas carols were sung, and Mello and I watched them in silence until a tall, black-haired boy entered. If I had to read the faces of the others, I would have said that they radiated admiration. But I had no idea who it was. "This is L. He moved out of Wammy's a year ago," Mello told me. I nodded. There was admiration in his voice too. "What did he do so great that you are all amazed?" "You don't know?" Mello looked at me horrified. "He's a genius! And a super great detective.Everyone wants to be his successor. " "His successor? What for? "" So that the world doesn't fall into chaos. It has already become very important. "I nodded in confirmation. I didn't understand this admiration. Mello ran to the other children, joined in and then played a piece on the piano. All in all, it was a nice evening until we had to go to bed. I lay for hours until I decided to sneak out and enjoy the snow and the moon. I walked through the strip of trees and sat down on the slope of the mountain, at least that's what I wanted. L was sitting there, but apparently had already noticed me. At first I thought he was angry, but he waved me over. We sat there for a while, looking into the distance, until L said: "You're the new one, aren't you? "I nodded silently." Don't let yourself get carried away by the stress of the others. This is total bullshit. "I grinned. I was aware of that for a long time." Let's go in, you must be cold and there is another tree that needs to be decorated. "I nodded. He was okay, not picked up, nothing at all. I followed him back into the hall. Roger looked rather sour at first, but L told him something, probably a lie, because Roger smiled understandingly." Come on then come with me, you're sure to be of great help to Mello. "I never had the impression that Mello really liked me, but somehow we got along very well. It was even fun to work together like that. But unfortunately that got lost more and more in the many years later during the year, but as long as we were together at Wammy's, we always decorated the Christmas tree on December 23rd in peaceful unity,

It was strange to know that Mello was no longer alive. Yeah, I think I feel really lonely without him. Mello, we endured so much, we argued, laughed, kept silent and in the end you helped me convict Kira and died in the process. I wish you were with me today
I lean my forehead against the window pane as I did then.

- Merry Christmas, Mello -